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Monday, 22 April 2013

What Good Have I Done Staying Home?


This is the most caught off balance venture in my authorship where I just took off with my pen. It has been a month of waiting to let my diary belt down my feelings and I found nothing but dust being eaten by my writing table. As unbelievable it may sound, it is a slow poison for a writer with no concrete thoughts to judge itself on.Specially for the nasty ones, who refuse to stay put.

Prying on the thought what took me so long, I only get laid on with questions to myself. Will I do good expressing myself? Will I justify myself hiding the truth or hiding away from one?Fortunate enough to be no slow witted, I found my answer that explained my fears – Inhibitions. It scares me to hell how just being stubborn on being discrete inhibits you from what might have changed your life or at least one gratified day in your life.

I have been a singer all my teens, graduated in music in my matriculation days. But what if, 11 years of aloofness affected my God’s gift and I make a fool out of myself while humming a few lines?
I love to dance and did myself some group performances. However, if I just hurt my ankle while I try some moves on and what if people noticed that I wasn't ever good enough for it?
I have never been a good debater in my school days. However, does that mean I shy away from putting up my feelings outright to my in laws about what I feel being wronged to?
Should I ever be trying those beautiful stilettos I own, when I know I will stumble upon the next step I takeout of this door?

Oh, Yes! I do not know the repercussions.However, I definitely know how I sit on my couch moaning over my second coffee, dangling over TV channels just to wonder what good have I done staying home? What if, I tried shedding my inhibitions just to explore and be definite about the things; I am good or bad at.

Sneak out, crawl down or bud away to blossomLest you will never know how less beautiful you make this world without you. 

Here I sign-off blooming out of my discretion and writing my day off without judging my thoughts. Hence, breaking my writer’s block forever? I Guess? ;)

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